Cabin Fever

Gone are the days where I can be satisfied just sitting around doing nothing. Today was pure torture, almost everything I wanted to get done involved a little manual labor and therefore had to wait for Stan, I couldn't go outside because our steps are icy, and I quickly grew tired of just blankly staring at the TV screen. I did get the laundry cleaned and now all I have to do is sort it all and put it away. I would make such a poor shut-in. Fortunatly my dad has offered to come down tomorrow and hang out with me (he has been craving some time away from the doggers). I was thinking we could go to the movies or something since those will be few and far between once Wyatt makes his entrance. I know that I am just stir crazy because I am so excited to see the baby and to finally get to hold him in my arms. I am also not going to lie it will be nice to be able to lay on my back again because my hips are getting super sore. I keep trying to persuade Wyatt to be born but I guess he isn't as ready as I am.
Tomorrow I am taking Sugar to get groomed so she looks all nice and pretty for us when we get home, and I have to call the pediatricians office and speak with the lactation consultants. I also have some craft projects I have been planning so I may make a trip out to Target in the morning to get all my supplies.
Work called me three times today so at least I know I am missed although it makes it all the more tempting to just go back to work until the baby is born. Perhaps if he isn't born by Thursday I will just break down and go back to work until he comes. I already miss everyone and have been thinking about how lucky I am to be hired at such an amazing workplace.

I just can't believe I am sitting here on the edge of it all about to have a baby. I don't think I have fully grasped the magnitude of it all. That at some point very soon I will be a mommy. Pretty crazy. I am lucky to have so many great people who can help me sort out all those baby questions. I keep reflecting on my own experiences with Baby Annabelle and Baby Sarah and wondering how the experience of this being my own baby will differ. I have all these amazing memories of them throughout their infant/toddler years and remember these huge breaking moments like when they first crawled, walk, spoke. Each moment was so amazing and I was so glad to be a part of it all. I just can't wait until I am a parent. I am also really excited to see Stan with Wyatt, and how he will be as a father.

Where Am I Going To?

I know it isn't for good and somehow I still volunteered to be working on a project while I am on maternity leave but I am still feeling very sad about leaving today knowing that I won't be returning for many moons. I just have my space here and my life here that has been something that has brought me so much joy and to leave it all behind temporarily feels wrong. It is so nice to be at a place where I feel accomplished and appreciated. It is so rewarding to be working with people who bring so much support and joy and food into the office. By far, Terri has been the best boss. She has been a person who I can learn from and who welcomes our growth (both inside and outside of the office). I love how she fosters our dreams and encourages our continnual persuit of education. I don't think I realized how sad this day would actually be for me. I guess I assumed that the "break" would be more welcomed but I can't help but wonder what is going to happen now? How will my committment to my work or my performance differ from its current position? Will I be able to balance work and home now that the baby will be present (c'mon now we all know I am not good at switching focuses like that)