Workin Hard For The Money

Today the staff was so nice, they welcomed Sonya and I with a meeting and cake and fried chicken and pizza. I have been volunteering for a lot and really letting people teach me all they have to offer. I feel really lucky to have someone like Sonya training with me because she is a real go getter type and she always helps to motivate me. I know one thing she will make one heck of a manager or director or some head one day. Its nice because she really helps me push when there are times that I would maybe try not to say anything. She is really helpful and I am so pleased to have someone like that helping me succeed. Talk about a blessing.
In fact everyone here is like that they will come to me and ask if I have any questions or if I need anything. And all the SROs love to hear about my progress so I am just so blessed to be here right now.

Update

Its sad that noone reads this or is it sad that I don't really feel like there is really anything interesting to write. I started blogging earler because I knew that I wanted to get pregnant soon and since that hasn't happened yet the blog has been so far rather boring.

I was talking with a co-worker yesterday about the whole prenanacy thing and she reinterated what I have been hearing for the past year now. Just wait when it happens it will happen but it wont happen until it is time. I know I don't want to rush myself into something I will later forget I have just lately been feeling that same old twinge for a baby. I have been full out obsessed again. I keep going on sites to get tips on how to concieve even though I know that in the best of circumstances things don't always pan out so I just have to hold a little longer.

I am continnuing to try to lose weight although I keep messing things up. Right now my focus is no dairy and no cola. Of course today I had a little cheese on my tacos at Chipotle and I ate so much. I just have to keep focused whatever it takes even if it means that I have to buy those frozen diet meals and eat them for lunch. I know what you are thinking those diet meals never work but they will save money and I will be able to have something here for lunch so maybe I will be less tempted. Maybe I will go to the grocery store and give it a try.

I have started back into logging my calories into sparkpeople and I am feeling happy about that.

Taking It Easy

Things have been going really well here at NIH so far. I am actually really proud of everything I am learning and of all the energy I have been putting into succeeding here. Its great to feel like I am doing well and to have such a wonderful group of people helping to make my adjustment here easier. I feel like people here make you feel as though you really fit in and that everyone genuinely cares about your success.
Today is my first payday so I am going to go through the finances and see exactly how much I make less everything that we spend money on and then come up with a "do-able' figure to save. I think a problem in the past has been that we always tried to save too much and then we would end up spending everything we had and then some. This way we can figure out something to save that won't be too obtrusive so I think that will be a great plan.
So on the weight loss front nothing has really changed. I am still struggling with motivation although I have been ovulating regularly. A girl I work with here Sonya and I were talking about having a hard time with disicipline and I said that we should try to lose weight together by holding each other to our goals. So we will go out to eat together and both try to eat healthy. I think I need to nip the whole going out to eat thing in the bud because I have let it get just too out of control. Today is a visit to the nutritionist for nutrition and acupuncture. Actually this will be another one of those times where she treats me as though I am pregnant because I just ovulated yestreday and the day before. Stan and I have been trying but not nearly as hard. I am just trying to take it easy because if I don't get pregnant right now that is prolly a good thing since I have a new job and so much going on. Not that I would be at all disappointed if I did happen to get pregnant just that I am not freaking out so much about it.

Sug's Stuff

I want to post some pics of baby sug because I totally love her and she us really cute so I am posting the most super cute thing ever so BE PREPARED

My First Week!

So I have been a government employee now for a whole week! Things are going well. I will write more lata

The End Is Just A Little Harder When...

So this is it my last day at Graphic Visions. I have been waiting for this forever but its kinda bittersweet. It feels like high school graduation where you know that you are moving on to better things so in that way you are proud, and you are finally free from what you have been describing for year as pure hell so you feel completely unchained and extatic. But then there is this feeling of loss like you are moving on and there are people you may not see again. I know that when I go to work on Monday I will be filled with all sort of uncertainty and it will be just like going to college. A huge place filled with unfamiliar people who are already with the vibe of the place. So I know I am going to miss the familiarity of GVA. All those people who have seen me grow up over the years.

My office is now empty except for the box of stuff I am taking with me and the cograts potted plant I got from everyone. I think what I am going to miss most of all is seeing Stan at work. Him and I planning where we will go to lunch or him just stopping by my office to see his Mrs. Bear. Its great to move on but leaving anything behind is just so heartbreaking.

I have decided so I wont miss Stan too much to bring in pictures and stuff for my office when I am ready to get all set-up. Just like in college I guess, I am going to try to fill my new space with colorful memories so I can stay confident enough to create more memories with everyone there.

I think a big part of this is I look at this place and I remember coming here as a little girl holding my mom's hand and now it really feels like me leaving here is a way of letting go of her hand. I am stepping out from behind her and really trying to succeed in the career world alone. It has been great to have this as a space where I could learn how to be an adult and what things I need to do to be a better employee and in a lot of ways a better person so I am very appreciative.

Christmas Photos