Gloom Dispair and Agony on Me

I found out just a few hours ago that at 11:30 this morning my Grandmother passed away. She had gone 5 days without any food or drink so I knew it would be happening soon. I still feel sad though. I know I am going to miss having her in my life but I am glad that she is finally out of pain and at peace. Saying goodbye to people is hard though. Just to know that you aren't going to get to see them again. I guess since I have never lost anyone I have never had to grieve. When my Granfather died I was too young to understand what was going on. Since this is the first time I am kinda left wondering what I am supposed to do.

Overall the pressures from today have been a lot. I got in this huge fight with Stan about money stuff once again caused by his brother. I don't think he realizes that his heavey involvement becomes really obtrusive and that it causes a rift between Stan and me. I always feel like his brother knows more than I do about our personal affairs. It's also important to know that since I am an only child I don't understand why he cares this much. I mean never would Peter demand that Audre show her budget to him. Danny would never call Beth up and tell her that she is spending her money in the wrong places. Neither Soren nor David would keep track of the money that her parents have loaned her. You know why they don't do this because they understand that money is tight that people live up to their own means and that we all have our privacy. I keep suggesting to Stan that we buy a house in Middletown that costs either less or about the same as our condo, I have sent him the listings, and I have said countless times let's make a budget but there is only more fighting. Then when his brother calls us up and starts going off about how we are taking all of his dad's money I have to take the heat. There is just no solution on this end and I am just not sure where to go or what to do.