Don't Let Me Down

"Who Amoung Us Would Have Our Skin Changed & Stand In His Place?"



I got the job!!! My last day at Graphic Visions/Joan Carol is on January 4th!!. Its crazy because I have off on Monday and Tuesday for holiday stuff and I had off yesterday and Christmas Eve so I have 4 days off during my 2 week notice period. Its basically one week. In fact tomorrow will be exactly one week. They haven't found anyone to replace me as of yet which makes me really nervous since there is a lot of training involved with my job. I am trying to talk Bill into paying me $1000.00 a month to continue doing the magazines on a part time basis. That extra $500 every two weeks will really come in handy for Stan and I. I was thinking of the 1000.00 a month as a way where we could pay our mortgage like all we would have to do is add $800.00 to the $1000.00 and we are covered which we will easily have in one pay period. So keep your fingers crossed. I will find out tomorrow for sure what we are going to do in terms of that and then I guess I will find out who is going to cover me here.

I called my friend Lisa about the whole thing this morning. I started feeling really guilty about leaving and giving notice over the holidays especially because this is the first Christmas for Bill without his daughter (who died over this past summer). Lisa was just telling me that I have to do what is good for me and that I did my responsibility by giving my two weeks now they need to fulfill their responsibilty by coming up with some alternative.

I am really proud of myself for getting the job and everything. I really walked in there with all sorts of pride and everything. I just feel great about that and a little crummy about leaving GVA the way it is now. I always do this where I am really excited to leave but then when I am about to leave I start thinking about all I am leaving behind and I feel sad.

So as far as health and baby stuff I have some great news I OVULATED WITHOUT ASSISTANCE!!! Its kinda played a second fiddle to this whole new job thing since now that I have a new job the timing for a baby is really off. I just was excited to see my body positively responding to everything that we are doing. I am so proud of my body for this biological feat. Our bodies are so cool. I am so amazed at all the things that our bodies are able to do without any problems its just baffleing ha I just thought about the fact that these thoughts are coming from my brain and that my brain is firing messages to my digitorum muscle so that I can type all of this etc which means that my brain is being all narcassitic. Does that make sence like my body is talking about how amazed it is with itself.


Ok so after that side note, I have decided that I am going to continue with my nutrition and everything but that I am going to take a holiday break (which is until after the new year). I figure leaving a job is stressful and that going to another job will be a great time for me to make really positive changes in my life. So I am not making this as a New Year's resolution but I think I have done an excellent job this year and I have grown so much and a little break is a great way to acknowledge how far I have come. Plus as I said I have all these new goals that are linked to me having this new job and I think putting all these changes into effect (and using the job as fuel) at the same time will be great for the overall me. Plus it should help me to feel more confident. I am also feeling a little demotivated since I have the job so I am thinking that a break from all this fertility stuff will be a great way to get myself refocused.
I am ready to go home but I think I may leave here around 3:30 or so. I like leaving here early so I can go home, cook dinner, and play with my Sugar Booger.
Oooh also I am going to post a lot of Christmas photos soon so be sure to check back for that...


Goals for this week:

MAKE IT THROUGH UNTIL I GET TO MY NEXT JOB