Meeting A Man From A Motortrain

So today is really mondane. I have finished all of my work and I am feeling so bored. The sad thing is I am just not really into working here anymore. It feels weird since I know very well that my time here is almost over.

I met with my bosses today about who will be taking over my position after I leave and I have to say it all felt so surreal. I kept thinking about how inexperienced I was with everything before I started here and how much I have grown over these past few years. Its amazing to look at how your mentality develops from lazy college student to a knowledged and indispensible employee. I can't wait to learn all the neat things that will come from NIH.

I have decided to continue doing the publications at least for a brief time. It will be a great way for me to pick up some extra income and since we already have a hard enough time affording everything having something extra coming in every month will be just the thing I think.

Oh I have this cool idea for a future nursery. Whenever we do have a kid my idea is all about stars. Like I would do a celestial theme and at the top as a border we could do song lyrics that talk about the sun, stars, moon, etc. so far I have these:

- " And we all shine on with the moon, the stars, and the sun"
Instant Karma by the Beatles

- "Theres a Starman waiting in the sky; he'd like to come and see us but he thinks he'll blow our minds"
Starman D. Bowie

I am trying to come up something that incorporates music. Like I think that music is something that Stan and I are so passionate about and so I think it would be neat to use that as a basis. The only problem is there isn't really any nursery stuff that is music oriented (that I found). So I was thinking that we would do a whole nighty night thing where we incorporate music in the room with lyrics or something along those lines. Like make a door sign that says "Golden Slumbers".

It doesn't really matter at this point since I think Stan and I pretty much have an agreement that now is really not a good time for a baby since I will have this new job and wont have the leave to have a baby. I am thinking we will do one more cycle in January (if I can) and then if its a no maybe we will wait until the summer. I am just thinking about trying to do my best in my career right now and whenever baby comes along I will assume that the timing was right. But for now its time to focus on me. Maybe that's what all this stuff has been about. I have lost weight but its been for a baby and there is no denying that. And now that I have brighter things on the horizon I can't just ignore the fact that this time in my life is still all about me ok well me and Stan but that's great. We have the opportunity to enjoy one another and can get all our baby urges out by spoiling our awesome nephew and Beth's super wonder girls.
I love how my mind always does this complete 180 and I will firmly believe the opposite of what I believed yesterday. I am just going to concentrate on the path I am on right now and the other stuff can follow when the timing is right. I mean Stan & I have been obsessed with me getting pregnant ever since we got married. Its just nice for us right now to not have that pressure both financially and personally. I mean I am totally not ready to wake up every couple of hours and then go into work on like no sleep.

I have been waiting on this 306 form that I am supposed to fill out for the job and then it should also give me all the information on everything I will need for my first day. I am going to miss working with Stan though. Although we have decided to drive in together to conserve on gas and I think it will be a good way to have some extra quality time too.