Hey-Hey

Good Morning All! Yesterday I went home and I slept all day and that really helped, I still feel pretty nasty today but not like yesterday so I am happy.

I have now reached the worst part of the whole concieveing process, the part where you still have 2 weeks to wait before you can do any kind of birth control tests. At this point my head goes back and forth saying "what if I am" and "don't get your hopes up, just be patient." I think that when I get my period it is sad because it means officially that I did not concieve but it is also a good thing because that means I am Day 1 into my next cycle which is all new opportunities. Right now, however, there is nothing I can do but waiting until Day 1 or lack thereof.

I know that if I can keep myself focused and busy here at work these thoughts will not plague me so much so I am trying to really keep myself busy. In terms of on the weekends I have so many projects that needs to be completed for my Grandma's Anniversary Party that I know I won't really be worrying too much whether or not I actually did concieve.

I have so much to do to get ready for this party but it's nice. It feels like a "good-bye" present for my Grandmother which puts more emphasis on getting everything done, plus my mom won't stop hasseling me until it is finished. Yesterday she made me take notes on everything I had left to do.