Let's Get Physical

I am super impressed with myself this month. I have been really efficent and have stuck to my fitness plan, even more than that I have been loving my fitness plan. Each day after work I bring my clothes in the car with me and drive straight to the gym where I rock out to my tunes on the cardio machines. I have noticed a change in my fitness ability too. Since I have been doing all of this I can run up the stairs without being out of breath and I have way more energy and focus than I did before. It's perfect timing too since my job has just recently started really picking up and usually I am so busy that I turn around and it's 5:30.

I think with my job picking up and my fitness keeping me occupied at night I feel much better about the whole not having a baby thing. It's one of those things that when you are obsessing over it then you start to feel bad but if you are occupied you don't even notice it. In fact because I have been so occupied it has made me grateful that I haven't had a child yet. This gives me more time to spend with my friends and family or just some nice personal time. I also realized that for every month I don't get that notorius plus sign there is another month of pure freedom that I can dream about at 4 am while I am calming a screaming child. These are times in my life that I won't get back and as I see my friends (and myself) moving in different directions I realize that the time I spend with them is really precious. Life can come in and invade all of that and then suddenly you regret not being able to see this person more or that person more until it's too late. (Not that they are dead but that they are moving on in their lives.)

Adding to my goals of this month has also been that I wanted to try to believe more in the present or have more faith in the present. I am always so quick to look to the future but never realizing that what I have right now in my life is pretty great. I should appreciate that instead of pushing myself into the future and then looking back with longing and regretting never knowing how good I had it.

Stan is looking at a government position right now and I am really crossing my fingers that he gets it. I think it would be an answer to many people's prayers since it will mean more money and definate job security. I am also wishing many blessings on Audre since she went for a job interview today and the postion sounded like something that she would be awesome at.

Tomorrow I am getting up super early to wish Beth a Bon Voyage and immediatly after that I am going to rush to the nearest computer and start pricing some plane tickets to Hawaii. ALLLLOOOOHA!