Bad Day

Today at work was a little less utopian than the others. I was so excited yesterday when I finally had some work to do with this collegue of mine, Mo. Of course the morning (that would be today) I come in and immediatly get called into my Team Leader's office for a stern talking to on how Sonya needs to be trained on contracts and apparently I know more than enough in that sense. Well it all just got blown out of proportion and I think it got everybody mad at each other. My whole theory on it now is "live & let die" if Margot wants to act the way she has been acting (which has been so inapropriate for someone who is supposed to be a leader) than that's the way she has to act. I am not here to make a whole bunch of friends I am here to get the job done and its like this petty popularity contest or something.

I was fortunate though amidst all of this chaos I had my HUB A subcommitee meeting where I got to take a walk over to the neurosciences building and just get away from here for a while. It was perfect! I got to throw out some ideas that will be taken back to a commitee but I don't have to follow through with anything just attend the meeting and throw out ideas. That is perfect for me. Actually I do have to proofread an article but I won't have that for a while. I was also thinking about trying to be a kind of historian for the IC. Like anything that we do I would like to take pics and highlight that. I know Mo is up for an award soon so I may take a couple of pictures and write a story for the DEAS newsletter about it.

I feel so much more renewed now, the meeting just gave me the perfect opportunity to shed the tension from here and come back with a much more open perspective. Now I am thinking about what I expect of myself at this job and one of my biggest expectations was for me to have no involvement with office politics. I don't mind interacting on a superficial level but I don't want to be one of those people who is invested in the politics of an office. I think this whole situation could have been avoided but instead of begrudging Margot for her mistakes I should take it as something to learn from and nothing more. I should look at her as an example of the team leader I don't want to be and see Kim as the kind of team leader I do want to be like. Maybe I should look on the bright side of all of this which is that soon I will be working and learning from Kim and I will know a lot more about the grants process. I just hope that none of the relationships I have formed throughout this past month is damaged because of what transpired today. I guess it won't because that is work you may hate someone one day but you still have to work with them so you try extra hard to find things you like about them.

I am also cheering on myself today for sticking to my I overate for lunch and breakfast this morning so no lunch today thing. I'm proud and a little glad I have been so preoccupied. Coming in at 11 really makes the day go by soooo much faster.