Bummer Dude!

I feel so sad today. There are all these things hitting at once today and I am just not feeling as social as I usually am. At work I really try to be outgoing and a real go-getter but I think today I am just going to stay in my shell.

First I am bummed because my best friend is moving to Hawaii. Its great because her two girls will be able to see their Grandma and Grandpa all the time but for me I feel sad because I am going to miss out on all of that stuff. It also makes me upset that I never pushed myself more to see her. She decided she was moving like 2 months ago and I just find this out yesterday. Its all because I have let things with my friends slide. I think its easier sometimes when people live really far away because you know that you can only call them so you end up doing it more or something. It just seems that between work and Stan and weight loss/conception I just start to lose the desire to hang out with my friends. Its not that I don't like them or anything I really do I just have soo much going on that I tend to be preoccupied with other things. My friends for the most part live really close to one another and don't have full time jobs so they can all still hang out as a group and have time to talk to one another.

I am glad that another one of my friends will be working really close to me so we can go shopping or hang out either after work or on our lunch shifts. I try so hard to focus on an area in my life and inevitablly I end up completely ignoring another area. I think the biggest sting is that it is my best friend, the one who I want there during everything major, the one who I feel the most comfortable being with. She accepts me for me no matter what that is and I just really appreciate it since I haven't felt that way with my other friends.

I am also bummed because I don't think my weight loss is going to be as great as what I was hoping for this week. I think this saddness will go away when I am actually there weighing myself at her office and I find that I have lost weight. Not to mention I am on my cycle so of course I have come extra weight from that. I am thinking within the next few weeks I should really see the change. I am just bummed because of everything all mixed together hitting right now.