Motivated Once More! DAY 24!

I am feeling fantastic today! First, I found out that even with my little cake & ice cream thing yesterday I still came in where I need to be with calories which mean I am doin somethin right. I am also at that point where my body is just kicking out all this energy because I have been eating healthier.
My days are structured like this now: I eat breakfast on the way to work (usually dry Cheerios) then around 11 or 11:30 I have a snack which can last me for a while. I will eat lunch between 12:30 & 1 usually and then I either have an after work snack (grapes etc.) or if Stan is working late then I just eat dinner when I get home. If not, then I wait for him and we eat together.

Its nice because I am actually consuming less calories eating more and I am soooo happy about that. The thing I wanted to avoid has been the hunger because usually the cravings will accompany that.

I am just glad that I am motivated again! Its so much easier when the motivation is there. The past couple of months when I didn't really feel motivated I was thinking about how can I get myself back to that point and I was just really defeated feeling. But with the new job feeling more comfortable and fertility right where it needs to be I am back into having a baby.

I will sometimes revisit some memories to keep me in the fittness mode. I just think about those times when I lost weight and where my motivation is. I am so ready to be at that finish line and I feel so proud of myself for everything I have done so far but this is far from complete. I am just taking it month-month in hopes of keeping my spirits up and going strong.

I am actually looking forward to a weigh in this week. I keep waiting for Friday so I can show Paulette how hard I have been working. I have to say I really owe a lot of my success so far to her. She keeps me focused and motivated. She supports me in my ideas toward losing weight. When I am down she helps me up and she celebrates with me when I am doing well. Its nice to have someone else invested in the weight loss process. When its just for me I can justify to myself why I shouldn't do it but I know that every week I am going to have the check in with her and then I am going to have to talk about the week and why it went in one direction or another.

I also owe a lot to blogging and sparkpeople etc. I go back every now and then and read my old blogs and feel so great listening to my previous struggles and reading what my weight's were where my goals were set and what BMI I was at the time. Its great to see all of that change over time and to know that now almost a year later I am still on track! I realize that blogging my thoughts isn't that entertaining to other people but they are to me. I have all this freedom to just get out how I feel at any particular moment in time and then later in life to use that as a reflection of that day and that time.

I love to read William's blog too. He serves as a huge motivation. I will go back and read that March 4, 2007 blog when he entered the world and I think about how proud we all were of him and Maggie. How amazing it was to finally see him. And it makes me want to finally see our child. It pushes me to be healthy watching him play and giggle. I like reading about his growth throughout the year and thinking about my own growth how far we have come over this year...all of us.