I love looking back at photographs. Everyone looks happy and usually by the time you look back at the pictures you forget about any bad stuff that happened or tense situations. Also as an outsider look at someone's pictures you start to have a feeling for their lives it's as if you were on that vacation with them or that you were standing there to the side of the action but still a wittness.
Today I am feeling a little down. It's day 16 and still no egg, work is only so-so right now as I am pretty sure that I am being purposfully excluded from things, and I am frustrated with my weight loss (or rather lack thereof). For the last couple of days I have been Ms. Piggy eating ice cream, nachos, bean dip, cheese dip, salsa, and whatever other delectable treat I can get my hands on. I know this slows down the whole process but I have just had such strong desires for the food. And what makes me the most upset about it is I start to feel like I blew another chance at conception.
In terms of the whole ovulation thing last month I ovulated on days 19 & 20 so I shouldn't be surprised that it hasn't happened yet although I am scared. Each month it's like a lottery, "will it happen this month?" the last few months have been great but I admit I have my doubts. Now my baby desires have gone far further than they were before. Now I am just bummed that I am not successful and who knows maybe a whole nother year will have to go by with nothing. I am just praying like crazy that this turns out ok and I am actually really worried that I am messing everything up with my uncontrollable hunger pangs.
Got a meeting I will write more in a bit.
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