The Tangled Web

So today is having its occasional drama moments but I am not going to resign it to being a “bad day” instead I am going to try my hardest to look on the bright side. I am truly learning my job at work and feel like I have seen some real progress within myself. For this I am proud. And since I have decided to once again turn over a new leaf there is still hope on the horizon!

Last night after having Chipotle for lunch, Don Pablos for dinner, and then a very gooey Sunday at home I realized that I don’t hold myself to limits. I think I dread saying no to myself so instead I just keep indulging. Don’t get my wrong my all day fiesta was a dream but it still took its toll. So while I lye in bed with a belly ache I came to the conclusion that I have to focus more on improving myself as a whole. Not just focusing on one part of myself like weight loss or fertility but on everything. I think in order to institute a real change I have to enact changes over many areas within my life.

I am looking to discipline myself with my house keeping, with our dog, with our health, etc. I think it will be good to hold myself to a higher standard. It’s always good to expect more from yourself.

Also I have been thinking a lot about what Stan has been saying about going out to eat. Stan always says that you always have a choice as to what you get and I think he’s right. At a restaurant they may give you bigger portions and fattening options but you have a choice in the amount you eat and what you order. I just have to learn how to say no.

Another thing I feel I need to start instituting is creating a goal and sticking to it. So if my goal for today is to steam clean the carpets then I shouldn’t go to sleep unless those carpets have been steam cleaned. I have been thinking each day I will set up and house chore for myself. Just one chore that I have to do before I go to bed, like for instance today my goal is to put away the laundry. Simple as that, nothing really big, but something I still need to complete none-the-less. Then I am planning on having certain chores for everyday like keep the living room & kitchen clean. My goal is always to have the common rooms nice so whenever we have guests come over it isn’t a scramble to make everything presentable.